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I Am Trying To Become Love.

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Field Notes In/On Transition
I Am Trying To Become Love.
This blog seems to have become less about the daily weirdness, good and bad surrounding my transition, and more about my sorry state of mind. In hindsight I think that’s what its always been about. The daily and constant misgendering doesn’t bother me so much any more. I don’t even hear it really, I’m too spent emotionally from the last month or two of misunderstandings and confrontations with friends and family; to stand up against someone too much in their own world to see that mine exists in the same universe.
horoscope from here, (it links weird for me, so I screen grabbed)
 This is kind of the crux of my personality really. I have spent most of my life worrying about what other people think, and letting other people speak for me. Because I am so open about my feelings and thoughts, people approach me with help so much that I have over the years become very reactionary to that proffered help. I recently asked some friends to l…